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You Betrayed Me
You said you would be there. I believed you. I am at a loss for your strange behavior. How could you surrender what we had? Did you lose hope? Did I not give you hope? My my my how you professed undying love! I will wait till time stands still before I abandon you. And yet abandon I am by a man who said he loved me? What do men know of love? They are all filled with lust and sex! And even though you had these qualities, you also had others I had never seen. I know you were angry because I did not feel what you felt, and I do not know why I thought you could handle such an arrangement` when I knew I would never submit myself in that way… I guess I should not be so hard, but how can I not be upset? You were fun, you were sensitive, and you were crazy. I do not know why I always overlooked that part of you? I must not have listened when you mentioned all the family mental disorders. To hell with all that, you are a coward~! Dam you for ever coming into my life! As usual, it was a torrent and difficult relation at times. You had such struggles, you had such pain, and you thought of me. I did not appreciate how much you needed words of encouragement. I was too bitter of what men had done to me. Men care nothing of a woman’s world; if they do, they must be gay! I had my stubborn ego to keep me` telling you how false love is. That love does not have power, that love only hurts, that love is what I fear most… I could not give you my heart, I could not have you turn into every other man I knew. You were special. Yet you were forbidden… I forbade you, as I took from you affections and encouragement. Do you think of me? Did you mean what you said? Why did I let you go? I think you were the uncaring one, but I never gave you a chance as a real lover. I only held you at a distance. You wanted to join and work together, and I said no. You kept trying to impress me and show me you were someone worth having as a mate. You now go out to find that mate, and I am here without my play pal when times were happy and we enjoyed eachothers company.
Thomas A Sutor P O Box 2343 Lompoc CA 93436 Rockhawk.com
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All written word is "The Opinion" of Thomas A. unless otherwise noted...
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