There is no cure for Chronic Pain, but there is Pain
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There is no cure for Chronic Pain, but there is Pain
Suppression if your State is not Florida or Georgia... Click my Name. Thomas A Sutor for anyone who wants to join me on facebook! |
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Who has not had a Broken Heart?
More than anything else in this world, I trust my God. I was at the breaking point, and I did not do myself in. I did not even lose my ability to make rational decisions. Now, if you talk to my friends, they will say I am literally out of control. And they are far more in the right with that statement than I! I can not see the madness I do, even when it is all over, I still do not know why I acted the way I did. There are to be sure` emotional arrangements that are hard to deal with. I think for a person like me, emotional disturbance is the norm… I get involved emotionally and connect with people. It is not an ego thing, as much as empathy. I have the unique gift to feel my friends pain even better then they can at times. However, taking on emotions for another is not something anyone can do continually. At some point, you need a break. A place of solitude where you can redefine your outlook on life. I had thought only suicide could be a final end to my gift. A gift I was told I received at birth when the sword of God touched my head while my mother brought forth my physical being in the labor room. Here I was created into human atmosphere, no longer an alien to the outside world, I took my first breath. It is not easy to comprehend when we try to grasp our purpose that` will make life seem fulfilling. Why I can not feel relaxed and content has more to do with something that I have been born with than any unique thought process. My mind does not do well where it can not speak truthfully. I need my friends to trust me with where they are at and not just give me the trivial details of the day. I need to know we connect; otherwise, it is not a real friendship, it is only a relationship of opportunity. I do not need opportunity; as much as’ I need insightful dialect. When I can connect to another, be it lover or friend there must be a realistic appreciation for my mind, and the way I see things. I have a yearning to be heard, and I know when I am being thought of in unnatural ways. It is always unnatural for friendships to end, yet people do not go after their friends~ in this day and age… When things do not work out, people separate. At worst case, they go to war and kill. Somewhere in the darkness of life, we all have this second nature that seeks dominance over the way we see the world. It is our duplex minds. If our minds were singular, we could not carry on a conversation with ourselves. It is this internal struggle about life that we have two distinctive views. When we make a choice, it is based on the two in our head and which one has a more logical and reasonable approach. When both collide, I can not think straight, and my mind is filled with apprehension.
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