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We feel the emotion.
A place, a time, a place… We remember the one we love with most appreciative memories. Our heart was ignited by the love of another, and we find this to be the most happiest human condition! Am I not lucky to know how to love? Of course I am! I have come to understand that love is freely given and freely taken. She does not need permission to activate and reiti-an`ate experiences, He does not hold back the manly passion that defines his soul. We do our part to please our partner. It is in this cooperation that we realize the benefit of another and not the fear. Our past have been filled with sordid places and sordid people. We were young and found out how painful it can be when someone uses us and our love. We give and gave, and they take and took. How very sad that the person we did so much for “never” returned our affections. They focused on our shortcomings. And our secrets, they use against us! Betrayed, we hold onto that person as if love would one fix everything… After many years of doing the same thing expecting different results, we were at our ropes end. Either life was going to change, or something very very very bad was going to happen. Oh the many responsibilities of ending a dysfunctional relationship! After the experience was over, we were haunted by memories and night terrors. Places our mind would go to find answers. What was I thinking to find answers in fear? I should have been focusing my thoughts on who and what I am going to do now` instead of dwelling on the past… Today I understand that love is very very very good. It is not filled with mystery, it is not filled with pain, and it is not corrupted by my petty self induced emotional feelings. What an awakening!! That I’ could choose to think what I want and how I want? Nobody gonna tell me what I can do, and what I can’t. No body gonna hit me or beat me because they think they can, and nobody’s gonna ruin my emotional state today! Today, I focus on those I love. They are my family of friends. The people who really get me, and even if they don’t at least they accept me and my right to be me. They encourage me to research meditation and self control.., I never thought to control my thoughts. I did not know it was a discipline. I understand the discipline. It is my choice to love, it is my choice to care, and it is my choice’ too make a choice. This is the kinda freedom I always wanted. Too think and speak without fear of attack, or dread of other people’s opinion- on what I say. I understand my life is not meant to be lived for others, my life was and has always been: To live~ for me. And when I can share closeness with other like minded people, I am in heaven. Amen.
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