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Love Vs. Pain
Trapped in the migraine of my soul, I find no water for my thirst! Aches and years of suffering. I am too cowardly to ascertain why life should go on? At times one needs the right to die. When the human body feeds on itself, one can not overcome continually… It is amazing how the mind makes up scenarios on how to face each day, but it can not make up my brain to heal me. I sit in my gutter of hell; it is an island I share with no one. I see the others of my kind who have been afflicted with “ilk” A very rare mind disorder that lets you continuously switch from mood to mood with minutes or hours… Once the mind has taken control of the reason to act normally, you just act out in the most inappropriate ways. Passive aggressive behavior infects us all’ as does selfishness. I am infected with it and choose to plan an escape. I have not chosen the day or the date or the hour, it will be there when my mind` no longer can handle the brains decision to continually send disturbing singles. I am at a loss for words and lash out at everyone. I am angry, I hurt, and I don’t care! This place is most dangerous as many a close friendship has been ruined by ill mannered conversation. The ones we always live to regret. Yet, there is a place of no regret. A world not influenced by false religious dogma. A place that all people know of, and we will all arrive there eventually. This is a place of freedom wherein one no longer distresses over the unstoppable sensations! Madness no longer matters, and your behavior does not come into question. It is a peaceful place where all worries stop, all disappointments disappear, and all hatred ceases to exist. The world of the dead is filled beyond capacity, and we still can not wait to get there! I love you and I understand your plight. You have had too much suffering, and there is no known cure, only constant undulations of misgivings. Your mind is tormented and it has begun to change. You choose not to let your mind progress to a point of hopeless exasperation dependent upon the mercy of dignified people… You have suffered long and hard. You do not have to continue to prove yourself to the world. The world has turned its back on you. Therefore do not worry about what others will think, find comfort in the grave and let love not hinder you.
Thomas A Sutor P O Box 2343 Lompoc CA 93436 Rockhawk.com
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All written word is "The Opinion" of Thomas A. unless otherwise noted...
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