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In life and Love and Misery
We look to life to give us a purpose, yet what would we like that purpose to be? Do we want to have a strong personality filled with passion and romance, do we want to be secretive and mysterious? Or, do we want to be accepted by those we meet? So many want fame and fortune, why even I want fame and fortune! Still, I need not let that keep me from being happy if I do not attain all my wild dreams and fantasies. I have much to offer if I but look into myself and find that part of me that makes another happy. Would it not be the greatest life to have trustworthy friends and finical independence? I think so, but how many of us are trapped in money troubles? Too many I think. Yet if we lived someplace else in life, maybe money would not be the only security we know… We want love and are willing to trust another. That is where I must begin to find my heart. Furthermore, I must learn to love my self first with truth and passion! If I draw, I must not fear showing my emotions in every work of Art I create. If I am in a political position, I can choose to make things work better in this world. If I am honest with myself, I should be able to face any hard ship or setback in life. Sometimes, I do not want to face the trials of life! I want to wallow in my confusion and despair! Why? How should I know? That is what happens when we have a breakdown. We can no longer accept the way life is and are now ready to change. Making the step to change the way my life is can seem a daunting task. I do not allow myself to fear what I have not; I focus on how others in my position in life have rose above their circumstances. Many people find joy in a simple life. How I wish I was able to enjoy just an ordinary calm life! It seems when things get too boring; I cannot wait for some sort of drama to challenge my spirit to the test! A test of behavior that I hope will make the situation better! I do not say the right thing at the right time. Many times I have said things I regret. Oh to take back some of the words spoken in anger would be like a sweet pleasure to my soul! But alas, actions and words spoken in the past linger in the minds of the one we hurt. They are not so easy to forgive and accept us, as they once did… It is not good to focus “too long” on the mistakes of the past. The past is over and can no longer influence the future unless we let it. Today, I will focus on my ability to be helpful and friendly. It is in making others happy that I find my laughter most enjoyable. The future is always in motion. There is nothing set in stone` accept our own stubborn attitudes. I will try more often to see another’s’ side of the story. It does me no good to be critical of others when I know I am no saint. However, I enjoy a good friend’ and it is my friends that define me. May I be lucky enough to have those who love me enough` to be honest with me at all times. This is not always done because people worry about hurting another’s feeling. If my feeling has me trapped in a delusion, I think it is worth my future to know what I can do to make it better... now. Thomas A Sutor P O Box 2343 Lompoc CA 93438 Rockhawk.com |
All written word is "The Opinion" of Thomas A. unless otherwise noted...
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