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I love her.
I did not believe I could fall in love again. I had resigned myself to living alone and not worrying about the relationships I will never have. It seemed I was always left out` that I was not meant to find my love of a lifetime. How cruel and unjust I thought God was. Who was he to determine my life, and then say I have free will? If I had true free will, I would have willed someone to love. How is it that there is no such freewill as this? Do I not deserve the right to have someone to love “and not” have them taken away? How is it I am left alone to face this depressing and sometimes cold loneliness...
You were my spark of sunshine! I did not realize how much I had longed for what we share. I thought I knew about love. I thought I understood marriage, but nothing comes close to how I want you close. You restore my energy after a long day. You stand up to me and confront my problems by helping me walk through them. There is no love greater than to die for ones friend and I would gladly die to my old life` too starts a new one today. I did not see the error of my ways, and I became caught up in the lies. I do not want lies. I want honesty.
She does not know how I love her so, or is she my copy? The one who will complete my male side` as I complete her lady side. We are not that different, and I find this a joy! We can agree on things and not fight, and if we fight, we will always understand a deeper intimacy of true love and not walking away. Some times.., it seems walking away would be the easiest way out. How many unnoble men and women have disappeared into the night, leavening their lover to cry? How many have attacked and bruise the one they say they love? How many will I put up with today? Not a one. This love is built on trust.
Whenever there is fear, I will trust you to help. Whenever I am tired, I know you will charge my soul! I do not need lots of money, only enough to love my family and feed them… She brings out in me` a very hopeful man. I desire to speak with her and learn her ways. I want us to share insights into healing as we forget the way it was. I do not live in a fantasy; she is real, close, and a partner. I was not thinking I could realize what love of another really feels like; until, she came by my way and decided to stay.
Thomas A Sutor P O Box 2343 Lompoc CA 93436 Rockhawk.com |
All written word is "The Opinion" of Thomas A. unless otherwise noted...
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