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I apologize..,
Because, I want to work things out. I do not know how to say what I mean all the time. I want to show support, but I also want to be supported. It is difficult trying to understand the need of love, but is good life` when one has learned how to love. No more abuse, no more hitting, and no more lies. I have seen enough of that in my life! I want to live without the need for fear of food or shelter. Is this wrong of me? Should I be able to face every hardship because it is the will of God? I do not know. I know what I feel inside my mind and heart. You can understand that gut feeling deep in your stomach. It is so strong and pervasive. How I wish to listen to my instincts and make the right choices. It is not always easy finding the right way to “life” or dealing with life. Everyone does it so differently. However, I have learned that love brings closeness and this brings comfort, and that makes security in the arms of another… How often life has been difficult and deceptive. I thought I knew what to do, I was sure I understood the motives of another. Today I have motives of my own, and they are to protect me. It is not alone that I want to face this world. I want to share that experience with some one I love. I want to know my love is desired and appreciated; I will no longer let my self be used by other people’s agendas. I have my own agenda, and that is to be honest. With the freedom to speak my mind, I never have to worry about what I say. I think of my thoughts and what they mean to those I care about. I will not hold back my affections and concern because I am at a loss. I will trust. My world is not without confusion. My actions do not always make sense, but I have learned to walk in the ways of friendship. Even though not all friendships are made to last, some do. I want to be a part of the equation that says I will have those I love and who love me. This is worth my forgiveness’ too admit I am wrong. Once one can allow them selves to be wrong, they can learn how to do it right. I hope you see in my spirit, the spirit you wish to walk with. Moonlit shoreline does my feet tread…
Thomas A Sutor P O Box 2343 Lompoc CA 93438 Rockhawk.com |
All written word is "The Opinion" of Thomas A. unless otherwise noted...
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