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Me Happiness John 16: 16 – 24
There are days in my life where my anger really scares me. It is not until after I have thrown my tantrum, that I realize the rage within me. What price would I not pay to find happiness under all circumstances? My life is not a series of happy events. My life has been filled with multiples of disappointment. I sometimes feel like other people have it way better than I do. Which fills my soul to become resentful. And I stew into the mixture of hatred and anger. I think if you are a human being, you have felt these feelings yourself.
I like at verse 22 “that is how it is with you: now you are sad, but I will see you again, and your hearts will be filled with gladness, the kind of gladness that no one can take away from you.” I appreciate a statement like that. Because I feel my life is sometimes filled with far too much sadness. And as we get older it seems the sadness is greater. The longer one must live the longer one must suffer. However, the mark of a Christian is the ability to suffer yet retains a just mind. For I have learned through my own personal experience that some things happen to us, and we only react. A Christian learns to move beyond reaction and back into a good and purposeful direction.
There are thoughts that fill a person’s mind. Thoughts that we all have shared one time or another. When life seemed meaningless, when friends seemed unattainable, when the family became too unbearable. It is those times that we have cried and gnashed our Teeth! It is those days we cursed the day we were born. It is those days when suicide seems like a likely alternative. It is this form of madness that only the “possessed” can possibly understand. So yes, I do beg the Lord for answers. I ask him to explain it all. I downright demanded it! This is how much I trust God. Even when I’m rebellious, even when I’m blasphemous, even when I’m filled with hate, I talk to God.
God has never disappointed me. He has always protected me. And when I ask him for peace of mind. For self-control, for insight into life, for the knowledge of how to serve him rightly. In the eyes of the world, my Christian life would send me straight to hell. I continue to prey to Jesus too change me. I pray for him to have mercy on me. I pray for him to fill me with the right questions. I wish for my mind to become closer to the way Jesus Christ lived. It is a very difficult road~ only because my human desires cannot possibly fathom a nonphysical afterlife. It is because my soul belongs to Jesus that I remind my body to do good wherever and whenever possible.
Thomas A. SUTOR
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