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Family
Obligations If I had not been born into my family, I could say they are no more than people I’ve spent my life with. As if living in a foster home, my parents would be guardians; my brothers and sisters would only be friends. However, family comes at a price that is sometimes too painful to bear. I have a conscience and must make choices that are not what some people in family would consider right. Where some families would disregard or overlook, I must address and say it is wrong. My family was not a happy one. Growing up together did not strengthen the bonds of trust. We did not say I love you on a regular basis. We did not hold hands and say prayers very often either. Even though I believe in the ideals of being good and helpful, I sometimes realize my siblings and I have different agendas. Describing the difficulty of not being able to communicate in a fashion that is familiar, we discuss matters as if we are strangers and enemies. It is as if coercion is the only reason we ever tried to get together, not because we wanted to. The holidays with the fake smiles hiding all the lies and shameful deeds that have been done. The trips to church and the teachings of Christ never seemed to make it home after the service was over. The Bible preaches family values that do not see any families able to practice. How easily jealousy, greed, and self-justification break down the bonds of blood. The only lessons ever learned from our parents were the values of blame and hatred. I wonder how many other families and children understand the way I feel? I know I am not the only family member who cannot understand why we fight and bicker over issues we should be coming together to solve and resolve. There are many reasons for the discord amongst me and my siblings. Sadly we cannot find a way to forgive and come close and remember. This is my reality of family and a time to which appearance is never revealed to the outside world. Family obligations are reserved for secrets only. Thomas A Sutor P O Box 2343 Lompoc CA 93438 rockhawk.com |
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