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Defining
the Struggle Who
am I to her? I am everything she
never tells me. And I have a long
and hard and deep passion that she does not understand.
Still, that is what the mystery of love is all about.
I cannot force myself not to let myself love.
If I am truly to be free, if I am to engage life of the fullness of my
being, I will embrace love as power. It
is the ultimate power that has created the universe we live in. It is this very
impossibility that we all exist. We
cannot deny we exist, we cannot allow bad motives to reverse our desire for
love. I must not allow fear; I must
not give in to things that I cannot control, that is why when I give myself to
love’ I can only do it when I’m fully honest.
Love does not embrace the heart of
secrets, love does not warm the soul whom is cynical, and love does not give up
on me. I will grab hold of the
mighty passions that have defined manhood and womanhood. I shall allow myself to touch the hand of God and asking
questions God shall define my future. How
often do I chase the treadmill of this world?
A place for those who have no spiritual faith. I have been down into the
deepest steps of human physical agony. I
have spent years experiencing something so very few will ever grasp.
I’ve been fired for my employer, I have been paid off by the man, I
have even been betrayed and had my trust broken because of my Nativity.
At what point should I surrender my hope in the power of love?
What point do I become despondent? And
what point do I curse God? And if I
say that even after all this was done to me I still choose kindness.
Foolish?
Am I rambling like a madman? Because
I cherish love over all things in life? Wisdom
and insight are fruits of love; compassion and passion made by the fruits of
love, safety and happiness are the products of love.
My human side has felt the heartbreaks in the blues of lost love. My soul only stuck on indecision. My mind not realizing love has still not given up on me.
So I took hold of this great magnificent wonderful feeling.
It embraced me like the warmth of a mothers hug.
It talked to me and taught me like a good father.
It showed me I’m an individual by design.
It let me know how very small I am to the universe, and yet God still
wishes to commune with me. My human
side does very despicable things at times I think, but my mind forgives me and
tells me to do better next time.
Because in life we do not see our
full potential until love has become instinct.
With that decisive intergenic information, I had to look at my life as a
gift. I would not live forever, I
would not always be at peace, and sometimes~ I would probably even hate myself.
It is in this darkest place in where suicide beckons you to end it all
now and free yourself into the next universe: “without a guide.”
I’m glad love saw fit to protect me from myself when I did not know the
right actions to take. Forgiven and
not forsaken, I stood tall and told myself I like this information, I believe in
this information, I even here that this information comes from a very trusted
source. We can never become tired
of saying: I love you. Peace to the world! Baby!!! Dedicated
to Christy Lea: by inspiration and willingness to stick it out with me. I think
I shall become a great man. Intergenic =
Definition: 1) “God Will Define” Thomas A. SUTOR P.O. Box 2343 Lompoc CA 93438 Rockhawk.com |
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