Dear:
Love
From wherever I go to
whatever place I end up, I hold fast to my faith in your love.
A love so supreme’ so filled with compassion- that the mercies of your
understanding’ frees me. I am
so confused, and confounded, upon the derelictions of my life.
From wherever I may have gone, to wherever I may go, I feel you deep
inside my heart- making my heartbeat, and flow.
A beating that comes to the walls of my soul.
The soul created by you, for your service- in goodness, truth, and grace.
How can I ever imagine obtaining such love as this?
A love that’s lasted around century’ upon century.
Your love still, today, fills my heart with joy- and sadness.
Sadness of the times when we were not able to be
close, sadness of when I shut you out, sadness that I was ever angry with you
“for creating me”. How often I
have tread the ground that leads to hell. It is a place well known “here”-
where I live. I see people daily in
their actions’ submit to heavens greater shame, rejection of God’s Grace-
for their own selfish desires. How
often we trade in love, and how often that comes back to haunt us- as we get
older. I have devalued my friendships, by not being a true friend’ myself- in
the first place. When I was asked
to give of myself, all I did was hold back.
I would not let the sunshine from my soul| enter into another.
If only God could have guided me in the ways of
love, I would have had many lasting friendships- and loving relationships.
In my obsessive behavior, my selfishness enraptured me, and I shut out
any chance for the cross’ of the Christ- to guide me.
I could study the Bible for one million years- and be no closer to God.
He comes close to me when I am merciful, kindhearted, humble, and
grateful. How often I chase the
Holy Spirit away with self-centered, disastrous motives. Seeking to fulfill some
false security, I refuse to rely upon God.
I believe somewhere in this world something physical, human, or animal,
or material will finally “one day” fulfill me- and I will not have any
need’ to ask for God’s guidance.
O’ dear lover, do not let me betray my heart.
Keep me away from hatred, evil, and the Devil.
Do not let his voice enter into my mind.
If I do not see him, he will deceive me and destroy my chances- of
enjoying the light. He’ll
convince me that The Word never became flesh.
That the Son of man has died, that the Son of God never- had a rebirth.
No dear lover, do not let wisdom or insight escape me.
Show me what it means to be mature, self-controlled, intelligent, and a
warrior. Let my battle begin- with
no longer making myself important, I wish to glorify my Savior’ and believe in
God. God is love as it is said: in
Scripture.
I do not believe my love will ever
disappoint me. When the father
cares for his children, none have to suffer. It is the Devil of indecency, and
indecent acts that Satan wishes to prevail against me- and anyone else.
He is the academy of hate. And
I do not wish to go to his school. I
will stay within the teachings of the Lord’ regardless of afflictions,
persecution, or rejection. Even if
the whole wide world abandons me- and I am all alone, He- will not forget me.
May my days be filled with the Joy of knowing you care, and my heart’ secure
in the law that you have sent them’ in the New Testament. If God is love, I am
in love with God. Who is the great
“I AM”
T' Loves C'
Thomas A. SUTOR
P O Box 2343
Lompoc CA 93438
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