Could
Desperation Be Found in This City?
I
belong to a population of people. I
am a citizen, I am a resident, and I am doing my best to get through life. Sometimes it becomes so difficult. For whatever reason, my mind struggles with my inabilities.
I focus on what I cannot do; I let myself become enraged with
satisfaction. Furthermore, I
maintain that’ I am sane. I walk
on the streets, and people look at me. They
find something charming about me, something that lures them to my characteristic
personalistic walk. I wonder some
time what they see? A man who is
confident, and arrogant Buffoon, or just another person walking down the Street?
Not that it really matters because I don’t give much care to others’
opinion of me.
It’s
not that I don’t respect what people tell me when I’m in their presence, it
is just that my mind is filled with imagination and wonder.
I’m focused on the many things’ I like to look at.
Therefore, I do not waste my time with those who look at me.
I trust people see me in a deciding delightful way of mutual admiration.
It is amazing how we’ all present ourselves, when we’re out in
society. We try to show ourselves as competent.
We try to be as cool as possible, and we sometimes stumble, and people do
laugh. It is at those moments of
embarrassment and humiliation that the true character of self-defense rare's its
ugly head. If we are smart, we brush it off and go on about our day.
If we are too self-centered, we continue to focus on ourselves and our
mistakes. I do not have time to
focus on all my mistakes…
Still, there are times when the “questions of why” finds a way to
override my fantastic reality. We
can no longer blindly follow any religion. We can no longer naively trust
society, and we can no longer believe youth’ will last forever. The new movies
are generally just redesigned plots- that are no longer fresh and new to those
of us who have grown older. There
are still things that fascinate us, but because of experience, we always
appreciate the unique artist. He is
the one who presents his material in such a way that it is truly new to all
generations. He masters his art in such an ability that divine
intervention must surely play a part. She
must be angelic in nature to create such wonderful works. It is those
individuals who have the ability to see things that the vast majority~ for
whatever reason- cannot.
It
is the true freedom of the soul that can speak its mind.
Afraid, but still having the courage to take chances.
Confused, but still willing to make decisions.
Heartbroken, but still driving on’ in the belief of love.
These are the many aspects that I wish to continue to learn.
I hope that I continue to discover the richness and variety of life! I
will do my part to encourage others. I
wish to give inspiration to those who are lost, and I wish to give guidance to
those who are tired. Because I am
tired, because I am disturbed, and because i yearn to be accepted, you cannot
say I do not understand you, you cannot tell me I do not know what it’s like,
and you cannot scold me- because I am different.
Because internally, we all know how to be beneficial to the human race.
Thomas A. SUTOR
P.O. Box 2343
Lompoc CA 93438
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