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Commitment The difficulty of sincere desires. The place where I wish for things that only a miracle could make reality. How is it that my love must be so far away? Why must I anguish in the distance? What possible purpose could this serve my ideology of God? Alone in the night, I do not allow myself to worry about what is not. I take strength that my love is more eternal than I have ever realized. My physical being sometimes forgets that life is only a short journey. In my desperation to be able to feel remote rural romance, I have decided to be willing to learn too trust my instincts and no longer question. I could find any number of difficulties and say that I was unable to surmount them. I could develop the case in a court of law and show how this is so implausible. I could doubt my own feelings and deny myself all the pleasures of love. I do not choose to deny myself the reward of loyalty. I’m willing to submit myself to any test so that my creator will find me worthy of the life I must live. No matter the difficulties or the indifference of my so-called friends, I listen to my heart when it comes to matters that concern my well-being. If I cannot trust myself to make wise decisions, I pray that God has put friends who truly understand my search and longings. I see older people. I know someday I shall join their ranks. It is during these young years that I wish to make friendships that will last. I know one day I will have to retire, settle down, or realize my age. In each moment that I grow older, I will embrace the situations that present themselves to me. I will not deny myself intimacy. I will not deny myself perseverance. I will not deny my love. I’m beginning to realize that nothing can destroy love. It is an illusion of demonic pride that love does not really exist. I will cut away the part of me that destroys my ability to be close to the spirit of integrity. There are no obstacles except the Lions that charge at us everyday. At what point did I think my destiny would be simple? I’ve been given a brain to figure out the right action. I’ve been given a body to be used in the most diplomatic ways. I’ve been given a heart that can cry even with the world. Moreover, I realize there is a great desire to be helpful. I do not have the freedom to choose where, and I would be foolish not to know when. In deciphering my actions, I will discover what is the best way to live. I have been taught that my life will be fulfilled when I can share freely everything that is within me. And when I reach for your hand I hope you will extend it. Thomas A. SUTOR P.O. Box 2343 Lompoc CA 93438 Rockhawk.com
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